Well, I did not sleep very well last night. I was hot and uncomfortable. I will have to see what I can do to rectify this situation. I guess all in all it was a good day.

For the most part these days I stay in my room and work on the computer. I think that I realized something today that I had not thought of before. As I was mulling over in my mind the constant inability to be anywhere on time reminded me of some childhood incidents. I remember when I was a child that my mother had a tendency to always be late. I remember us being late to my half brother’s wedding. Also, I remember whenever we had a family get together that we were always late. It became such an issue that I remember whoever was having the dinner would tell my mom the time of the event was actually 1 hour earlier than what it actually was just so she might make it on time. I remember as a child hating to be late and I believe I vowed that when I became an adult that I would always be punctual. So this might be a reason that lateness bothers me so much. I basically feel that it is a blatant disregard for other people’s time by being late. I do understand that occasionally unforeseen things come up that we can’t help; however, for the most part timeliness can be maintained by good planning. I’m not sure what will come of this journey that I am on especially with the outside help that was there in the beginning. I’m pretty sure that some of those people have possibly gone by wayside due to timing issues. I’m not certain that is the case it is just my thought. So that means that I must apply myself on my own. This doesn’t really thrill me because sometimes I feel like I could have done that at home; however, I guess that isn’t true because I haven’t made maintained progress that way. So, I must just do the best with the opportunity that is presented before me. I KNOW that God opened up this door so I am walking through it and looking for the best. I know it is a journey of self discovery as well as an opportunity to shed this extremely large temple that I currently live in. I am thankful to God for His blessings. Also, I know that God sent me here for reasons other than just for me. I must be prayerful as to what He has for me to do. I do know that the devil is mad and is kicking up the heat for spiritual warfare. I WILL WIN and will NOT be defeated by the enemy or by my own foolishness. I know that I have a tendency to throw in the towel when I get frustrated. This is a time when I MUST push through and conquer my old ways. Afterall, I am on a NEW PATH and the old things are in the past. I CAN DO THIS!!!!!