Well today was not a very eventful day pretty much by my choice. Today is the 30 day marker of my dieting experience. 30 days ago I started on this healthy venture and to date I have lost 95 pounds. I would say to lose 95 pounds and 30 inches in 30 days is quite monumental wouldn’t you? I spent most of the day in my room programming my new MP3 player that we got yesterday at Wal-Mart. I needed something to take with me when we walk the track so that I can listen to music. So, I think that I finally got it programmed properly or at least good enough for it to do what I need it to do.

I gave Miss Olean $ today so that if she goes to the market she can buy me a pineapple. She went and brought back a pineapple and cut it up and put it in the refrigerator for me. Rosa had saved some plates of food from the class today and brought them by we ate that and boy was it good. I am having a hard time believing that you can eat healthy and it really is tasty. However, I continued grazing what seemed like the rest of the day. I found myself eating walnuts, pineapple, watermelon and whatever else was around. I guess I mostly found myself nibbling on the walnuts because they were out in a big bowl. Soo does that mean that my food addiction is not gone yet? I suppose that it might never be gone I will just have to learn to push myself away. Miss Olean was making some pork n beans and I must begrudgingly admit that I did have a fork full of those too. That made me really upset with myself because I know that I’m NOT supposed to do those things. However, if I look at the good side of it I guess that I would have to say that it was good that I only had ONE fork full and NOT more. I do know that I was doing wrong because I felt like I was sneaking food when I had the bite. When you feel like you are being sneaky then you know you are doing wrong. I KNOW with God’s help I will and am overcoming this addiction.

Oh well, off to bed I go. I’ll see how good I sleep tonight.