Well, I have procrastinated over this for long enough.  It is time to bare my soul and come clean as it were.  I have always said that in this journey as you all walk with me I would be honest as to what happens with me.  That being said. . . .

December was a very trying time for me eating wise.  I did fine after Thanksgiving and even into the beginning of December then KABOOM!!!  I’m not quite sure what hit me nevertheless it hit me with a big KATHUD! 

I got my front yard decorated for Christmas before Thanksgiving and I was really in the spirit of the season and all that was left to do was to decorate the house.  All of a sudden I just lost all interest.  I ended up not even getting my house decorated until the Friday BEFORE Christmas.  I think the only reason that I went ahead and decorated was because I was expecting people on Christmas Day for brunch.  Well, lest I digress.

Something happened inside me and I just lost all control.  I ate everything in site.  I ate junk food like there was no tomorrow and I even fell back into the fast food nightmare.  On a positive note. . . I am pleased to say that as low as I got I DID NOT fall all the way backward and order a pizza.  THAT would have been the absolute worst. 

With all being said and done I believe that I have put on 30 pounds of the 155 that I lost.  I hope and pray that I have not totally lost my way and am headed backward again.  I MUST figure out how to get through this and get back on the right path.  I know I haven’t come this far to totally throw in the towel.  I MUST make it back on track.  I MUST!!!!